Getting Back on That Horse

Quick note: If you’ve been following my blog you may not have been able to gain access because it was suspended.  There was a mistake with administration and I’m obviously back up and running.  Nothing has been deleted or modified so feel free to read any and all posts you didn’t get a chance to before.

In my last post I said my family had gotten a new puppy.  Since she arrived I have worked a total of maybe two days in the last three weeks.  Yikes!  Amazingly, my contract is still good, but I’m having a hard time getting back to work.  Part of the reason I’m writing this is because, well, without taking new calls it’s hard to find new material.  The other reason, I’m tired and getting back to work is tough.  And I’m guessing I’m not alone in facing this dilemma.  Getting up at 6am with my kids and puppy and staying up until 3am taking calls is enough to wear anyone down, if it doesn’t kill them first.  But I’m not going to bore you with my mundane family life.  I’m trying to find the energy and will to get back up on that proverbial horse.  This isn’t simply a cold that knocked me on my ass or a reluctance to keep taking clients.  Life has just gone completely topsy-turvy and I can’t seem to find my footing.  Anyone with more willpower than myself wouldn’t have a hard time with this.  But I can’t speak for anyone else, and I’m not that perfect.  If I was, my husband might keel over from the shock alone!  Nope, I just can’t seem to cope with the changes.  Now I just need to figure out how to deal with it anyway.  I can’t nor do I want to stop working as a PSO.  I could easily use this as an excuse to get out of a job that wears down even the strongest, but I happen to like my job.  Gasp!  Yes, with all the degrading names, sick sexual perversions and erotic fantasies that would make even Larry Flynt squirm I still like what I do.  If you are a PSO who is dealing with a personal crisis right now (and that can be anything) but still want to get back to work this is for you.  For PSO’s who either can’t or don’t want to work anymore, well, there’s nothing wrong with that either.  Sometimes things just don’t work out the way you planned.  Okay, back on track here…  So how do you get back on that horse after getting thrown off?  Start small.  Get yourself back in the groove first.  It’s hard to go back to taking calls when you yourself probably haven’t even thought of sex in a while.  Purchase a porn magazine, watch a porn movie, scour the internet.  Start those naughty thoughts flowing again.  I usually do this on a weekly basis when I am on track just to keep my calls fresh.  It’s easy to lose that sexy edge when you haven’t used it in a while.  Next, don’t kill yourself trying to make up for lost time.  Give yourself permission to just let it go.  You may be tempted to force yourself to log in for three hours in one night, but your only going to lower the quality of your calls and frustrate yourself.  Believe me, I’ve done it more than once and pissed off more than a few clients.  Start by logging in for a half hour at a time.  If your calls are going well and your enjoying it, log in for another half hour.  You might find that you get tired more quickly and lose your patience easily if you force yourself.  When you start again after a temporary hiatus you’ll be surprised that you don’t have the same gumption that you did when you first started this job.  Of coarse, when you first started this job, you probably didn’t know what you were getting into and the novelty was keeping it fresh.  If you work for a good company, they’ll be forgiving and let you work at your own pace.  If they don’t, you need a new company.  Slowly work yourself up to your previous ability.  You might get back up and running quickly, or it may take a few weeks.  Either way, it’s okay.  This isn’t an easy job mentally and if you push too hard your going to resent the job and yourself.  If you get a bad call on your first night back, LET IT GO!  It’s nothing personal against you.  It takes a while to get back in the swing of things and it’s not unusual to lose your touch.  Eventually you’ll be back to normal and when those checks start rolling in you’ll feel a lot better and more confident.  Even the roughest toughest cowboys feel a sting when they get thrown off their saddles, that’s what makes it so hard to get back on.  Just for the record I’ve been thrown off a real horse, it’s a painful and scary experience.  But once you get back on and master it again, it’s so worth it!  So keep at it, you’ll do great, I promise.

Published in: on May 24, 2007 at 9:43 pm  Comments (2)  

My First Time

Well I did it!  The company I had left the voice mail for called me back on Monday and within two days I had a contract and training manual and was ready for business.  There were only two things that I wasn’t prepared for, other than the obvious.  Most, if not all, companies require that you use a headset with a corded phone.  And despite popular belief, most corded phones do not accomodate headsets.  So I spent all Wednesday running around trying to find an adapter for my headset.  Once all was said and done, it was time for the show to begin!  And what a show it was!  To be honest, most of the clients started out really nice.  I say started out, because at the core of every human is a sexual being and the preferences vary as much as personalities.  There were a couple of moments that started leaning towards the illegal.  Luckily I work with a company that has rules so I can steer clients away from certain topics.  Some companies are what’s called “No Taboo” which basically means anything goes.  And I do mean anything!  Before taking my first call I was so nervous!  I didn’t have any idea what to expect, and I don’t think there’s any way to describe it.  I was so shaky I thought for sure my voice would give me away, but it didn’t take long before I found a rythm (no pun intended).   

Published in: on September 28, 2006 at 7:41 pm  Comments (4)  

Nervous Anticipation

After spending all weekend bugging my husband to no end, I finally decided to really go ahead and do it.  But be warned!  This is not for the faint of heart or the timid.  I spent all Friday, Saturday and Sunday thinking about if this was something I really wanted to do and if it would harm my marriage in any way.  Like I said I really bugged the heck of my hubby and he assured me with all the warmth and patience a frustrated husband can that he was really fine with it.  Then I had to wrestle with the moral dillema I was facing, but my husband was the one that actually made a really good point.  I will never meet these people, there is no physical contact and my picture will never end up on some smutty web page.  And just as the PC title says, I’m a phone actress!  It’s all fantasy, there is nothing real there.  No one gets on the moral high horse with movie actors and actresses when playing a role that requires a steamy love scene.  So if I help a few lonely guys and get paid for it, there is no harm done, at least on my end.  So I have put some feelers out to see what I can find.  My first attempt was to leave a voice mail for a company I found on a legitimate and popular job search site.  The message requested that I leave a voice mail and if they liked my voice, they would call back.  I found another company and sent an application via internet.  Please be careful if you do that!  Do not disclose any personal information that would not otherwise be available to the public.  And a third company left me with many questions, so I’m waiting for a response.  Hopefully these three scenarios will help illustrate what you go through when looking for a job like this one.  In the meantime, I’m going to continue biting my nails in nervous anticipation.  I can’t believe how nervous I am waiting for these replies!

Published in: on September 26, 2006 at 7:30 pm  Comments (3)